Things Your Hairstylist and You Should Consider

 A few things to consider when you're visiting your hairdresser.

1) you are paying for their artistic vision as well as their creativity and personality.

2) you are not the hair stylist and as your opinion is more than strongly important, your hair stylist should recognize your needs and create what is best for you; find a hairdresser who does this, but keep the amateur critiques on the art to a minimum.

Hamlet

 I wish sleep these days would come easy. There is a lot of knowledge, a lot of information I will never obtain in this lifetime. I'm beginning to understand, as natural as it may come to others, this is the reason to wake up in the morning; to look for those mental or physical hidden doorways you hadn't seen before. An even better reason to wake up in the morning is love.

 This is where I'm letting in a little more love. I tried to end my life four nights ago. I gashed my wrist with a razor. Luckily, a close friend of mine came to check on me after I had assured my family that I loved them and was going to bed. My sister called 911 as my friend tried to put pressure on the wound. I can't believe that I had actually asked him to stop, I asked him to let it bleed.
 What I can't get my head around is that there was love, right there with me, my reason to wake up in the morning... and I wanted to cop out? What makes me the 'damaged one'? I just can't understand how I can be so giving and caring to everyone around me and yet still try to perform the most selfish task known to man.
 I am talented. I am loved. I am insightful. I am creative. I am great with people. The list goes on! I am all I'd ever want to be for now and I'm only going to get better. This experience has definitely been my wake up call.

 To all my family and friends, I am sorry that I did this to you. From now on, I will try my best to give back what I take.

 I love you all.

A Mantra, Though More of a Country Song

I'm giving up drinking for the first time
I'm giving up that much of myself to you
'cause it seems to me no help
When I'm drunk, I'm not myself
And now I'll never have to say these those things again to you.

I'm learning to climb up from the bottom
If there's anything to learn, I'll learn to live
'cause if someday when you're not here
if there was something you've made real clear
it's that there's nothing more important than the love you give.

Now it seems to me that others can have their drinks and have their fun,
and while others have learned their pace, I could never stop at one,
It's a long and sad excuse
How my head obeys abuse
to myself, It's not a choice of 'walk or run'.

There are two sides to every story and two sides to this kid
One side lives the life that his parents never did
But one side can't tell the difference
between death and pure existance
and it's the fight between those sides which can't be hid.

So I'm giving up drinking for the first time
I'll be giving much more now of myself to you
Because I'll have to learn to deal
with what myself and others feel
and so I'll be giving much more now of myself to you.